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Hey everyone. I joined this forum yesterday and have been working out somewhat consistently for about 3 months. Over the past 5 years I've had short stints of consistent training, but never for as long as 3 months. I don't know how consistent I'll be with this log nor do I know how detailed I'll be, but I'll attempt to log as much as possible.
Goals I'll be logging progress for:
My stats as of posting this video are as follows:
My current prescription med/supplement/PED stack (will remain as listed unless specified otherwise):
Diet:
So, diet discipline is something I really need to work on. Before I began taking the MK-677 two days ago, I had a very difficult time working up an appetite to eat enough to maintain, much less grow. I have been eating more recently due to the increased ghrelin from the MK, but with that increased appetite will need to come increased food discipline. Today in total I've eaten (or am currently eating):
I've always been genetically predisposed to a decent body composition and for that I am blessed. I've had bad alcohol and drug addiction problems in the past, but those are mostly resolved. The only recreational drug I consume now is cannabis, and that's only on occasion. Today I purchased a gym membership at a nice gym not too far from my apartment. For the past 3 months I've been working out at the small gym provided by my apartment complex, but am beginning to outgrow it. I just returned from my first workout at this new gym and have never felt like a bigger retard.
I have a speech impediment, and it get's exponentially worse when I'm anxious and/or winded. I also have incredible social anxiety, and working from home I rarely find myself around more than 3-4 people at once. There must have been 50 people in this gym. I asked one of the employees where a certain machine was and he couldn't understand my retarded speech patterns, I had to repeat myself a dozen times and I could tell the dude was uncomfortable since I sounded like I should have been attended by a chaperone. I was ashamed and embarrassed. I forced myself to get a workout in, but was at around 70% strength capacity (not retard strength, unfortunately) and maybe 30% cardio capacity given how anxious I was at being around so many people. My heart was pounding before I even began my session. I didn't realize just how bad my anxiety and social issues had gotten until today. I will return tomorrow and force myself to go through it again, I'm hoping that as I desensitize myself to larger crowds that I'll be able to better manage myself and can maybe prove to the gym employee that I'm not a retard. There were a lot of bad bitches too. I'm not working out specifically for women, but I have decided to make smashing one or more part of my goals. Unfortunately I didn't log or carefully track my specific workout while there as I was so anxious, I will make an effort to do so in the future.
As always I'm open to input, feedback, advice, encouragement, discouragement, or shit-posting.
Goals I'll be logging progress for:
- Total weight gained. (Goal Weight is 170lbs)
- Social anxiety/aptitude improvement.
- Confidence levels.
- # of big booty bitches bagged
My stats as of posting this video are as follows:
- 143.4lbs butt-ass naked.
- 5'7"
- ~10% BF
- 23 years old
- Socially retarded
- Very little confidence.
- 0 big booty bitches bagged
My current prescription med/supplement/PED stack (will remain as listed unless specified otherwise):
- Mens Daily Multivitamin
- 1g Omega 3's daily (242x2 EPA, 226x2 DHA, misc).
- >=5g Creatine Monohydrate Daily
- 10mg-25mg MK-677 Daily (just started taking it 2 days ago, will be working in 2 misc off-days per week, still trying to settle on a specific dose)
- 9mg Tadalafil Daily
- 450mg Bupropion Daily (for depression)
- 10mg Buspirone 2x Daily (for anxiety)
- Sporadic/As needed use of: Ashwagandha, Cordyceps, L-Theanine, Emodin
Diet:
So, diet discipline is something I really need to work on. Before I began taking the MK-677 two days ago, I had a very difficult time working up an appetite to eat enough to maintain, much less grow. I have been eating more recently due to the increased ghrelin from the MK, but with that increased appetite will need to come increased food discipline. Today in total I've eaten (or am currently eating):
- 3 chicken breasts
- 3 160 calorie protein shakes
- roughly 20 taki's
- 5 tablespoons of peanut butter
- a single poptart
- 2 cups of milk
- approximately 12 salt and vinegar chips
- and about 2 cups of veggies consisting of broccoli, corn, green beans, and peas.
I've always been genetically predisposed to a decent body composition and for that I am blessed. I've had bad alcohol and drug addiction problems in the past, but those are mostly resolved. The only recreational drug I consume now is cannabis, and that's only on occasion. Today I purchased a gym membership at a nice gym not too far from my apartment. For the past 3 months I've been working out at the small gym provided by my apartment complex, but am beginning to outgrow it. I just returned from my first workout at this new gym and have never felt like a bigger retard.
I have a speech impediment, and it get's exponentially worse when I'm anxious and/or winded. I also have incredible social anxiety, and working from home I rarely find myself around more than 3-4 people at once. There must have been 50 people in this gym. I asked one of the employees where a certain machine was and he couldn't understand my retarded speech patterns, I had to repeat myself a dozen times and I could tell the dude was uncomfortable since I sounded like I should have been attended by a chaperone. I was ashamed and embarrassed. I forced myself to get a workout in, but was at around 70% strength capacity (not retard strength, unfortunately) and maybe 30% cardio capacity given how anxious I was at being around so many people. My heart was pounding before I even began my session. I didn't realize just how bad my anxiety and social issues had gotten until today. I will return tomorrow and force myself to go through it again, I'm hoping that as I desensitize myself to larger crowds that I'll be able to better manage myself and can maybe prove to the gym employee that I'm not a retard. There were a lot of bad bitches too. I'm not working out specifically for women, but I have decided to make smashing one or more part of my goals. Unfortunately I didn't log or carefully track my specific workout while there as I was so anxious, I will make an effort to do so in the future.
As always I'm open to input, feedback, advice, encouragement, discouragement, or shit-posting.